Kategori arşivi: not a joyful playlist

bir mart

bilmezdim, nereden bakarsın. ama bak. gör, sev. benimle uyu.

bugün baharın ilk günü. sen gelmesen de bahar, gidemiyorum. ama belki güzel bi ayakkabı giyinip, bir gün bi’ süpriz yaparım. baksan da, bakmasan da, görsen de görmesen de, sevsen de sevmesen de, benimle uyum… -.

bir mart’mış bir yokmuş.

Sabah vakti taşlar yanıyor

Gözler kör buzlar eriyor

Çevremde dinler gibi güneş

Besbelli bahar geliyor

Kavuşmak masal gibi güne

Dokunsam masmavi tenine

Sarıldım o hain boynuna

Gel kör et beni bile bile

Gel kör et beni bile bile

Bulutlar taş kanlar yalıyor

Kimler yok kimler kalıyor

Bilmezdim son nereden bakar

Gitmezdim sen gelmesen bahar

Gitmezdim sen gelmesen bahar

step out of the car

binme o arabaya! binme!

Step out of the car
Inner-city action
It’s already won
It’s already won

Charges bring a swarm
To rumors of corruption
It’s already war
It’s already war

And I’m looking for you
So surrender to me
In this storm
It’s hard to see
There’s a thin
line between
Love and hate
Love and hate

Step out of the car
Acts of desperation
Leave you in a mess
Leave you in a mess

Americana’s glow
Is gone without a place to go
It’s already war
It’s already war

And I’m looking for you
So surrender to me
In this storm
It’s hard to see
There’s a thin
line between
Love and hate
Love and hate

Voices winning me instead
Undercover in my head
Voices winning me instead
Triggers pointed at my head

Step out of the car
Step out of the car
Step out of the car
Step out of the car

 

The Døn’t

Freedom could kill us, but we’d rather go on
This is a journey and we wanna go far
They say we’re selfish but this plane is on fire

We’re breaking promises we thought we could keep
We trigger avalanches unknowingly
We travel in and out, we take off, we land
We live in airports like we don’t have a plan
This is a journey and we call it home,
And when it stops we’re feeling miserable, well

We’re breaking promises we thought we could keep
We trigger hurricanes unwillingly
It’s our fault
When it all
Breaks into everyone’s lives
But are we really to blame?

It’s like a pain in the chest
Despair, Hangover and Ecstasy
So many people around
We disappoint and let down
And though we’re trying our best
Despair, Hangover and Ecstasy
Despair, Hangover and Ecstasy

We’re breaking promises we thought we could keep
We trigger avalanches unknowingly, oh
We’re not so different from convicts on the run
Freedom could kill us, but we’d rather go on
This is a journey and we wanna go far
They say we’re selfish but this plane is on fire

We’re breaking promises we wanted to keep
We trigger hurricanes unwillingly
It’s our fault
When it all
Breaks into everyone’s lives
Still we would do it again

It’s like a pain in the chest
Despair, Hangover and Ecstasy
So many people around
We disappoint and let down
And though we’re trying our best
Despair, Hangover and Ecstasy
Despair, Hangover and Ecstasy

Like a pain in the chest
Despair, Hangover and Ecstasy
So many people around
We disappoint and let down
And though we’re trying our best
Despair, Hangover and Ecstasy
Our only mission, our destiny

temporary

Deep inside the silence
Staring out upon the sea
The waves washing over
Half forgotten memories
Deep within the moment
Laughter floats upon the breeze
Rising and falling dying down within me

And I swear I never knew how it could be
And all this time all I had inside was what I couldn’t see
I swear I never knew how it could be
All the waves washing over all that hurts inside of me

Beyond this beautiful horizon
Lies a dream for you and I
This tranquil scene is still unbroken by the rumors in the sky
But there’s a storm closing in
Voices crying on the wind
This serenade is growing colder breaks my soul that tries to sing
And there’s so many, many thoughts
When I try to go to sleep
But with you I start to feel a sort of temporary peace

There’s a drift in and out

 

There must be some way out of here

“There must be some way out of here”
Said the joker to the thief
“There’s too much confusion
I can’t get no relief
Businessmen, they drink my wine
Plowmen dig my earth
None of them along the line
Know what any of it is worth”

“No reason to get excited”
The thief, he kindly spoke
“There are many here among us
Who feel that life is but a joke
But you and I, we’ve been through that
And this is not our fate
So let us not talk falsely now
The hour is getting late”

All along the watchtower
Princes kept the view
While all the women came and went
Barefoot servants too
Outside, in the distance
A wildcat did growl
Two riders were approaching
The wind began to howl

cobain’s disease* ends on April 5th

i didn’t die. he did.

The finest day I ever had was when tomorrow never came

came for me.

funny fact that i’ve always thought that i was going to die at my 27th. it didn’t happen, though it was pretty close at a 5th of April, the date he died.

If you die you’re completely happy and your soul somewhere lives on. I’m not afraid of dying. Total peace after death, becoming someone else is the best hope I’ve got.

no body likes you when you talk about death. anyways:

MTV Live and Loud: Nirvana Performs Live - December 1993

Kurt Cobain, Dave Grohl and Krist Novoselic of Nirvana (Photo by Jeff Kravitz/FilmMagic)

dear Kurt Cobain, may you rest in peace.

 

* Throughout most of his life, Cobain suffered from chronic bronchitis and intense physical pain due to an undiagnosed chronic stomach condition. His first drug experience was with marijuana in 1980, at age 13. He regularly used the drug during adulthood. Cobain also had a period of consuming “notable” amounts of LSD, as observed by Marander,  and was “really into getting fucked up: drugs, acid, any kind of drug”, observed Krist Novoselic; Cobain was also prone to alcoholism and solvent abuse.According to The Telegraph, Cobain had depression.His cousin brought attention to the family history of suicide, mental illness and alcoholism, noting two of her uncles who had committed suicide with guns.

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orada başka ne vardı?

tabii ki bişey yoktu. bazı şeyler anca şarkı sözlerine yakınlık arzediyor.

It was me on that road
But you couldn’t see me
Too many lights out, but nowhere near here

It was me on that road
Still, you couldn’t see me
And then flashlights and explosions

Roads end getting nearer
We cover distance but not together

I am the storm I am the wonder
And the flashlights nightmares
And sudden explosions

I don’t know what more to ask for
I was given just one wish

It’s about you and the sun
A morning run
The story of my maker
What I have and what I ache for

I’ve got a golden ear
I cut and I spear
And what else is there

Roads end getting nearer
We cover distance still not together
If I am the storm if I am the wonder
Will I have a flashlights nightmares
And sudden explosions

acı son

günü trajedi, ajitasyon ve arabeske boğdum. yetmedi bi de daha da acıtan şeyler hatırlıyorum. sanki acıdan zevk alıyorum! olaya bak! neyse bunaltı dolu iyi zamanlara özlemler. acı sonlar. işin acı kısmında kalmalar.

ya da hiç olmamalı bitişler. delirmeye yarı yol. duvarlar da üstüme üstüme ….. neyse :

Halfway into Madness
Walls are closing in on my lonely world
And it gets me down the highway to the
End of town
Halfway into Madness
That roiling Black Sky tattooed all my life
And it gets me down to somewhere deep down
Sometimes that’s what you call
A ‘Teen Heart Throb’
Trapped in the moment in time

And that’s the time when his Heart Stops
And you get lost in the memory’s eyes
And that’s the Heart’s frantic pace
Reach out to the memory’s arms
And feel it Vanish

Halfway into Madness
A loneliness’ that gets you down
The deepest dream
Sends you into something you still
Don ‘t understand
Sometimes, Somehow, the Madness
Of that Hour
That Trouble you’ll find
You’ll find it and you know that it
Will change you

not: birinden durduk yerde şarkılar almalar, ne güzel … ne mucizelermiş. :……..(

not2: hep uzaktan iyi bişeyler, öyle mi? hiç bulaşmıcaz? bulaşırsak hiç geç kalmayacağız?